I used to be where you are. After surviving a sexual assault that almost destroyed me, all I ever wanted was to be free and at peace.
I did everything I possibly could to escape my past, which led me to repeating the cycle of trauma again and again. Chasing people who weren't right for me, playing small in many aspects of my life, and settling for what I believed I deserved, which wasn't a lot.
I lived in shame and guilt, and thought healing "took time", so that's all I had to do, was wait it out for time to pass.
I spent 15 years "healing" and sought out every modality I could possibly find. Each one served a purpose, some was that it wasn't the right one for me, others I learnt tools and strategies to "cope with" my trauma. But something still resided within me, and it wasn't until I discovered Neuro Linguistic Programming that my life completely changed.
See, it was one moment that the emotional pit residing within my stomach was completely gone. With that lifted I was able to unlearn the behavioural patterns that had kept me alive up until that point. I was able to gain a deeper insight to how I operated, in relationships as a parent and friend. My entire life changed in one moment. Up until that moment, I thought "healing" was something I was incapable of because I truly believed I was broken.
Since that moment I have transformed my life by learning how to honour my truth and power. Understanding how trauma impacts the brain and the body I realised there was nothing wrong with me, to begin with. I can now advocate for my needs, honour my emotions, deepen my internal safety, and go after my goals without neglecting myself or my family in the process. I had to be seen in my truth and acknowledge that who I am is magic, even with a traumatic past.
By finding a way to accept my past, and see the power of being a survivor, I can live a life of love, acceptance, and joy, without allowing my trauma to dictate my direction in life.
Now, I'm supporting others to resolve their traumas so they can do the same.